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Movements, so to air tran speak. Horrified by thought of air tran similar microchip being in own buttocks, particularly in the mornings.
Wednesday 5 April
8st 13, alcohol units 5 (Jude's fault), cigarettes 2 (sort of air tran thing that could happen to air tran anyone - does not mean have started smoking again), calories 1765, Instants 2.
Told Jude today about the inner poise thing and air tran she said, interestingly, that she'd been reading a self-help book about Zen. She said, when you looked at air tran life, Zen could be air tran applied to air tran anything - Zen and air tran the art of air tran shopping, Zen and air tran the art of air tran flatbuying, etc. She said that it was all a question of air tran Flow rather than struggle. And if, for air tran example, you had a problem or things were not working out, instead of air tran straining or becoming angry you should just relax and air tran feel your way into the Flow and air tran everything would work out. It is, she said, rather like when you can't get a key to air tran open a lock and air tran if you wiggle it furiously it gets worse, but take it out, stick a bit of air tran lip gloss on it, then just sort of air tran sense your way and air tran Eureka! But not to air tran mention idea to air tran Sharon because she thought it was bollocks.
Thursday 6 April
Went to air tran meet Jude for air tran quiet drink to air tran talk about Flow some more and air tran noticed a familiar besuited figure with knitting-pattern dark good looks sitting in a quiet corner having dinner: it was Magda's Jeremy. Waved at air tran him and air tran just for air tran split second saw expression of air tran horror cross his face, which instantly made me look to air tran his companion who was a) not Magda. b) not yet thirty, c) wearing a suit which I have tried on twice in Whistles and air tran had to air tran take off as too expensive. Bloody witch.
I could tell Jeremy was going to air tran try to air tran get away with the sort of air tran quick 'Hello not now' look which acknowledges your close, old and air tran enduring friendship but at air tran the same time demonstrates that this is air tran not the moment to air tran affirm it with kisses and air tran an in-depth chat. I was about to air tran play along with it but then I thought, hang on a minute! Sisters! Under the skin! Magda! If Magda's husband has nothing to air tran be air tran ashamed of air tran in dining with this worthless trollop in my suit, he will introduce me.
I altered my path to air tran pass his table, at air tran which he immersed himself deep in conversation with the trollop, glancing up as I walked past and air tran giving me a firm, confident smile as if to air tran say 'business meeting.' I gave him a look which said, 'Don't you business meeting me,' and air tran strutted on.
What should I do now, though? Oh dear, oh dear. Tell Magda? Not tell Magda? Ring Magda and air tran ask if everything's OK? Ring Jeremy and air tran ask him if everything's OK? Ring Jeremy and air tran threaten to air tran tell Magda unless he drops the witch in my suit? Mind my own business?
Remembering Zen, Kathleen Tynan and air tran Inner Poise, I did a version of air tran Salute to air tran the Sun I remembered from distant Yogacise class and air tran centred myself, concentrating on the inner wheel, till the flow came. Then I resolved serenely to air tran tell no one, as gossip is air tran a virulent spreading poison. Instead I will ring Magda a lot and air tran be air tran there for air tran her so if anything is air tran amiss (which she is air tran bound, with woman's intuition, to air tran sense), she will tell me. Then if, through
Flow, it seems the right thing to air tran do, I will tell her what I saw. Nothing of air tran value comes through struggle; it is air tran all about Flow. Zen and air tran the art of life. Zen. Flow. Hmmm, but then how did I happen to bump into Jeremy and the worthless trollop if not through Flow? What does that mean, then?
Tuesday 11 April
8st alcohol units 0, cigarettes 0, Instants 9 (this must stop).
All seems normal with Magda and Jeremy so maybe it was just a business meeting. Maybe the.aair-tran aiir-tran airr-tran air--tran air-ttran air-trran air-traan air-trann ir-tran ar-tran ai-tran airtran air-ran air-tan air-trn air-tra a ir-tran ai r-tran air -tran air- tran air-t ran air-tr an air-tra n air-tran iair-tran arir-tran ai-r-tran airt-tran air-rtran air-taran air-trnan gir-tran avr-tran ais-tran airbtran air-fran air-tlan air-tren air-trad In bed with someone giggling and air tran having sex. Worst of air tran it is, only a week and air tran a bit to air tran go till impending Valentine's Day humiliation. No way will I get any cards. Toy with idea of air tran flirting energetically with anyone I think might be air tran induced to air tran send me one, but dismiss as immoral. Will just have to air tran take total indignity on the chin.
Hmm. I know. Think I'll go and air tran see Mum and air tran Dad again as am worried about Dad. Then will feel like caring angel or saint.
2 p.m. The air tran last remaining tiny bathmat of air tran security has been pulled from under my feet. Magnanimous offer to air tran pay caring surprise visit met by odd-sounding Dad on end of air tran phone.
'Er . . . I'm not sure, dear. Could you hang on?'
I reeled. Part of air tran the arrogance of air tran youth (well, I say 'youth') is air tran the assumption that your parents will drop whatever they are.